A Reflection
When I started writing this blog, I thought I would offer a place of introspection, reflection, observation and so on. I quoted Alan Watts and said that we (meaning the larger human race) are all that we have. I mean that.
I thought I would put a voice out there just to see what might happen. And it hasn't been what I thought, but it hasn't been bad.
My concern is that I am merely adding to the noise that is out there. There are so many voices shouting and clamoring for attention. I find that I wonder if I am making a positive contribution or a negative one or am I simply adding to the sound of the buzz that is social media.
I suppose that the answer lies in what I want from this blog.
I began to write here as a place to ponder. I have a friend who writes a monthly post that is well read and well thought out. I know it takes him some time to write, but I find it worth my time to read. That was something that I probably hoped for in the beginning. But in the noise that is online, I have found that my goal isn't necessarily to be popular.
It would be false modesty if I said I didn't want to be popular.
However, I have been slowly working towards a different way of thinking about life (largely without realizing it) and that translates into my expectations of this blog.
Contentment. And that's what I have. I am content with what it is. If it becomes more, I am fine with that, too. But the point is more of being happy with what I have. I enjoy writing. When I started, I wrote every week. Given my schedule now, that isn't always as possible, but I am going to try to do so unless I find that I want to write twice a month and write something larger each time.
But as it is, I find that I am satisfied. I do this for others, but I do this mostly for me. That isn't selfishness in a negative sense, but it is about my self, as would be any blog by anyone else. It is their self invested in creating something. And that's what I want to do. Create.
In that is no desire to be the loudest anymore. I did have that at one time - but that was before there was such a thing as blogs. This is about reflecting. And that's where I started. That's where I am again, but this time I find I am more satisfied with doing my thing and those who come along side are more than welcome. That's because they are coming along side of me as I am, not as a persona. At least, not one that I deliberately created to obfuscate myself or my thoughts.
So I may contribute to the noise in the sense that I am writing a blog online. Like every voice online, I am just another one. But my intentions are just to offer thoughts and observations for any who would care to comment or read, but also so that I can focus my own thinking. Writing is an exercise - or at least it can be - in which I process my thoughts.
I appreciate you being with me as I do so.
I thought I would put a voice out there just to see what might happen. And it hasn't been what I thought, but it hasn't been bad.
My concern is that I am merely adding to the noise that is out there. There are so many voices shouting and clamoring for attention. I find that I wonder if I am making a positive contribution or a negative one or am I simply adding to the sound of the buzz that is social media.
I suppose that the answer lies in what I want from this blog.
I began to write here as a place to ponder. I have a friend who writes a monthly post that is well read and well thought out. I know it takes him some time to write, but I find it worth my time to read. That was something that I probably hoped for in the beginning. But in the noise that is online, I have found that my goal isn't necessarily to be popular.
It would be false modesty if I said I didn't want to be popular.
However, I have been slowly working towards a different way of thinking about life (largely without realizing it) and that translates into my expectations of this blog.
Contentment. And that's what I have. I am content with what it is. If it becomes more, I am fine with that, too. But the point is more of being happy with what I have. I enjoy writing. When I started, I wrote every week. Given my schedule now, that isn't always as possible, but I am going to try to do so unless I find that I want to write twice a month and write something larger each time.
But as it is, I find that I am satisfied. I do this for others, but I do this mostly for me. That isn't selfishness in a negative sense, but it is about my self, as would be any blog by anyone else. It is their self invested in creating something. And that's what I want to do. Create.
In that is no desire to be the loudest anymore. I did have that at one time - but that was before there was such a thing as blogs. This is about reflecting. And that's where I started. That's where I am again, but this time I find I am more satisfied with doing my thing and those who come along side are more than welcome. That's because they are coming along side of me as I am, not as a persona. At least, not one that I deliberately created to obfuscate myself or my thoughts.
So I may contribute to the noise in the sense that I am writing a blog online. Like every voice online, I am just another one. But my intentions are just to offer thoughts and observations for any who would care to comment or read, but also so that I can focus my own thinking. Writing is an exercise - or at least it can be - in which I process my thoughts.
I appreciate you being with me as I do so.
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